[SheriS]

I don't know if it's because I got delayed on my stims or what, but I haven't been feeling very positive about this cycle lately. I really have no reason to feel like that. I mean, my last u/s was great...I was right where I needed to be...there are no indications that I'm going to have any issues. But you just never know!! I'm starting to doubt that this will work. I can't picture myself being pregnant!! What's wrong with me?!?! DH is being very optimistic and so are my docs. My family (the ones that know) and my best friend are acting like this is gonna be a sure thing! When in reality...we have no idea! I want to think positively and act positively, but it's so hard. They keep saying "well, when you're pregnant...blah blah blah" and it's really starting to drive me nuts!!! I want a BFP more than ANYTHING, but I just don't know how to deal with this stage of everything right now. Do I act like I'm going to get pregnant and get set up for a big heartbreak if I don't...or do I act like I'm not going to get a pregnant and then be suprised when I am?!?!? This is so hard!!! Grrr!!!