Lost my baby:(
I went in for a routine ultrasound yesterday and got told my babys heart had stoped beating and there was no fetal movement. I went into the er today to double check to make sure. The baby measured at 11 weeks and 5 days which makes no since because thats right to date. I still cant believe it. I have every symptom still. I have had severe morning sickness since week 5 and have lost 50 pounds but they swear its normal. I dont think 50 pounds is normal but they diddnt listen.Why am I still throwing up? I dont have any bleeding or cramping. I have to go in for a D.C tomorrow. I am so scared. Ive never had any type of surgery before. I wish they would let me keep the baby so i can burry her/or him. This is the worst day of my life. it feels like half of me has died. To me I am still a mom and that will always be my first child. I know i will be able to hold my baby someday!
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