[beans1078]

We have been trying for a couple of years to have a baby and no luck. I went to see my OB and she did an ultrasound and found a cyst the size of an orange and then sent my to a reproductive endocronologist. I went yesterday and now I have to have surgery. He did another ultrasound and it didn't shrink after 2 weeks. It is so frustrating going to friends houses for bbq's and they ALL have kids and babies except for us. One of my friends had a baby 2 years ago and when she found out she was in such a deep depression she was put on prozac because she didn't want kids. She didn't tell anyone until she was 7 months. Then when the baby was born she didn't didn't want to hold him. She has called me recently to tell me she is pregnant AGAIN!!! She has said that she is can't believe this. She won't even say pregnant. She knows how bad I want kids and how I have put my body through a lot to try to have them and she has said such hurtful things. She has said, "I don't know how you want this. This is like a curse. Not a blessing. I don't know how people get happy about being pregnant." That is something I just can't hear.

Thanks for letting me vent........