[Charloto]

It's so good to know I'm not the only crazy hormonal wacko

I have been an absolute wreck. My husband has been gone for work, like out of state gone, for the entire time i've been on meds this month and it's just making it all so much worse. I know he has to work but I'm so angry at him for not requesting to stay home during the most difficult time of my life right now. My crazy moment was a few days ago.. I just completely lost it. Crying (more like screaming) uncontrollably, wanting to throw things, pull my hair out, etc. Thankfully I was home so no one had to see it. I was talking to myself, out-loud, saying "what is wrong with you?".. "you're going insane!"

I feel like, the only thing my husband has to do is have sex. How hard for him huh? ha. At the very least he should be here to see what this is doing to me and let me beat on him

I start 100mg Clomid tonight. Taking it right now actually. Last time on 50mg was no fun. My stomach blew up like I was 3 months preggo half an hour after taking it! I don't even want to think about the mess i'm going to be. Did I mention my sister is pregnant and expecting literally any day now. And she wants me to be in the delivery room to photograph the birth.. sigh. I don't know how i'm going to handle that.