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I was re-directed over this way. I am 26 and a single mom already to a 6 year old little girl. Her father was a boyfriend of 6 months, and took off running when I found out I was pregnant. I met my husband when I was 23, we fell in love instantly, got married a year later, and started TTC right away. I always wanted a big, happy family, and I thought my dreams were coming true. I got pregnant the first month TTC, but sadly had a placental tear and lost the baby at 16 weeks. We began TTC again immediately. I also found out that I have the beginning stages of endo, and some scarring on my ovaries, although fertility wise I was told I am still in tip top shape. Sadly, 2 months ago, I lost my husband in a motorcycle accident. He was my best friend and my soulmate, and there is a piece of me that is no longer complete without him here. Those stories that you hear of people expecting their deceased loved ones to walk through the door are so real. The first few days it felt like a dream, like it couldn't possibly be real. The worst part is, I got AF several days after he died, so I knew we would never even have a baby together.
I started looking into donor sperm because in all honesty, I don't see myself finding "mr. right". I am extremely picky, and my husband was perfect. I am hoping to continue my TTC journey alone, and add to my family in a different way. I am hoping to find someone who looks like my husband, but it's proving to be extremely difficult. He had olive skin, blue/green eyes, and blonde hair, and a muscular/fit body type, and I can't seem to find a donor that matches him looking through profiles. I thought about doing photo matching too, but I don't want to spend a fortune on this. What donor catalogues did you use? Or do they offer them when you go to the doctor? I contacted a fertility clinic in my area, but haven't made the first step and made an appointment, I'm still a little nervous, afraid of being judged for being single or something and wanting a child!
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