Erin...I also know your pain. You need to not be hard on yourself. I remember thinking the same "what if" thoughts. Those very thoughts will drive you crazy. I did it just before my last cycle. I was more scared of getting pregnant than the actually round of IVF. Please for now take all the time you need to heal emotionally and physically. This forum is such a wonderful place and saved me so much from my pain. To have other women know what I was going through and what I was feeling was a true comfort. I am stronger today because of this place.
I will say that my marriage actually has gotten stronger through all that we have been through with IF.
