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Erin and Claudia,
Ladies I can understand your pain and know what you are going through. I was "due" on Christmas and lost the baby, I was due on my FIL's b-day and lost the baby I was due on my mothers b-day and lost the baby and was due on Thanksgiving and lost the baby. When I found out I was preg. last time I actually threw the test at my husband telling him congradu-filppin-lations. I was not happy about it at all becuase I was so so scared. Well as you can see I have the light of my life now, Jason. I was actually due again on my mothers birthday and instead I almost had him on my brothers b-day a month early!
Anyway I know the fear you have but you need to cling to your DH and lean on him. Over the years we have been through this ( 4+ years) I have leaned on DH a lot and he was/is wonderful. After the baby was harder on our relationship then the losses ( his parents are CRAZY!!! and caused issues but we are working it out!)
Anyway, do not ignore your pain and grief, take time to understand it, deal with it and hurt together! It will never really go away, it will always be with you as a reminder but it will get better!
When you finally have your blessing in your arms you will realize how important the lessons were in IF and understand what you went through it all for!
Erin, please have the blood clotting thing looked into, they can fix it and you will have a hard pregnancy but you can have one! It took 4 pregnancies to find it in me and on the last one it was to late when we found out to start the shots, this one we started fast and it made the difference!
You are both in my heart and in my prayers!
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