I'm having a bad, hopeless day. I'm afraid adoption won't work out for us either, and anyway, I still want a baby that looks like me and DH. I'm not over it.
They will say we don't have enought money to raise an adopted baby. When it's your own, no one is watching you and you can just make do.
I'm afraid we are going to get our hopes up and then be turned down, or not chosen.
It's just all such a roller coaster no matter how you slice it.
Why can't I just get pregnant and have a baby like "normal" people?!?!?
j
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me 44, DH 35
08.2000 started TTC
2001-2005 "unexplained IF," countless failed clomid cycles
02.14.05 miscarriage
09.17.05 miscarriage
11.07.05 PCOS diagnosed (2000 Metformin ER)
05.29.06 IUI #1 - failed
06.23.06 IUI #2 - failed
10.06.06 NI + follistim #4 - failed
end of treatment
TTC au natural...
11.22.06 BFP
12.20.06 cornual pregnancy ended @ 9 weeks (miscarriage)
02.06.07 ok to TTC again
11.2007 low ovarian reserve
01.2008 TTC au natural still...
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08.2008 hoping to adopt (domestic newborn)
10.24.08 1st home study meeting
11.14.08 2nd home study meeting (the dreaded home visit)
11.21.08 meeting with adoption attorney
12.05.08 3rd home study meeting
12.24.08 received finalized Home Study report!
waiting to be matched...
A Family is Born: adoption blog
infertility reality blog
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Hope gets us to the bridge, faith will get us across. ~ my friend’s grandma
I have been pregnant, I WILL have a baby! ~ Julie
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