[melarooni17]

Well, I have been now taking fenugreek 3 pills 3x daily and depending on the day I notice a difference. Not that much, but I only had to supplement 1 oz of formlua per baby the other night..so, I was happy with that, but tonight we may have to supplement too. I used to pump AFTER every feeding, and I still try too, but since I don't get enough milk for each baby after the feeding I end up pumping 2 times before the next feeding, so when the next feeding is over, I have nothing to pump afterwards..if that makes sense! I haven't tried the thistle yet. I also saw at GNC organic mother's milk it was called - it is a tea. I went with the capsules, bc I hate tea, but I may give it a try. I don't have PCOS, so I don't think that would be the same for me. I just think I am producing JUST enough and not more. When the babies were first born, I was like a freaking cow - I pumped 8 oz at each pumping during the day - we had tons frozen in the basement. DH thought we would be set for months!! Sadly..that is gone I cried my eyes out when I wasnt pumping a lot - I had a breakdown in the middle of the night last week - it was horrible. I know the stress doesn't help either and I get myself all worked up, bc I am a control freak and I don't want them on formula - I know...so stupid. My one friend told me once you supplement, you will think that it wasn't that bad and when we did it the other night, it wasn't bad, but I still felt like a failure. I know I am not and I know I have twins and I am doing the best I can, but I was so set on giving them only breastmilk, thinking that my supply would last forever...its just hard for me to realize that I may have to do the formula thing eventually. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with formula - I don't want anyone to think that I am against it, bc I am not. I just have control issues haha. Anyway, I will update later! Thanks for listening to my rant!