How exciting!!!
I know it always seems like FOREVER waiting for that first ultrasound
. But so much is happening between now and then. Just think of it...right now your little one is probably just a little sac/yolk....but by the time you go in you will see a little minature baby in there with a precious beating heart that you'll be able to both see and hear. It will be so wonderful!!!
It's hard to be excited about a pregnancy after losses. It's hard not to worry every second wether everything will be ok or not.
But I just got through each day thanking God for the opportunity to be pregnant again (for as long as he'd allow me).
You just take it one step at a time, one milestone at a time. You never stop worrying completely. Once you pass the time frame of your previous losses and everything still looks great (which you already have) things do become easier, knowing this time is different than all the others. But the worries are still there. They'll always be there. I mean here I am just starting my third trimester and still trying not to worry. Still knowing things can go wrong and not even contemplating how I could survive a loss this far along...but knowing that whatever will be "will be" and I just have to trust in Gods Will and his Wisdom.
I know it doesn't seem like it now...but as you get farther along it does become more real and the joy and excitment and anticipation flood you and before you know it time will just fly right by you. Where as right now each second of the day seems to just drag on.
It started becoming real for me at 6 weeks...all my other previous pregnancy's including this ones twin always measured a week behind and we never saw the heartbeat until 7 weeks. But with this little one he was growing strong and healthy and right on schedule at that first 6 week ultrasound. With each ultrasound it became more and more real. By 9 weeks we could see a perfect little minature baby dancing around in there, it was the most beautiful sight in the world to me. You could even see his little fingers and toes. By my 14 week ultrasound I could see so much growth and actual bones forming. It was amazing. But it wasn't until the 20 weeks ultrasound that I truly felt like this was REAL. It was actually going to happen. Before that each week seemed to drag on and on. But now I can barely keep up with the weeks. It seems like I wake up and another week has passed and my stomach is getting larger and I'm feeling him move more and more.
Just try and think positive. Try and enjoy every second of this pregnancy because it will go by soooo fast. Put your trust in God that he will help you through either way, and don't let fear hold you back from really enjoying the fact that YOU ARE PREGNANT
You have a precious miracle growing inside of you
Your a MOTHER
That is something to TRULY CELEBRATE!!!!
