JEN! Lots of
coming your way!!!!! I am
that 10 is your magic number. YAY!!!!!!!!! you're now officially on the TWW!!!
Ok, so while it sucks that there's so much on your plate I am so glad you are taking the "well, it is what it is and I'm not going to stress myself out or overdo it" type of attitude. Take care of yourself first. If deadlines get missed then so what. Do your best and don't stress... after all, if there is one thing I've learned in the corporate world, it's that any company out there, will not hesitate to kick you to the curb if they have to choose between employee loyalty and saving their financial outlook.
I am SO there with you on the low stress fullfilling jobs being inversely proportional to the salary. I couldn't live on a paramedic salary so even though I loved the job I had to go back to I.T. Fortunately, I found this gig, but even this job pays $30K LESS than what I was making before because they have that carrot of teleworking. So, I am still trying to find ways to get by on a lot less than what I made before, all for the ability to work at home and not have to deal with corporate stress or a heinous commute.
Ok, so now I am rambling...I'm tired so my brain isn't working so well...
Today I haven't had much chance to be online because my rabid chihuahua of a project manager was on me like white on rice all morning. Can we say micromanager? Nevermind that I just turned in 4 major docs or that I have an overabundance of major projects I'd like to be able to get to if he'd just leave me alone for 5 minutes together... but I digress... then I had to go to a customer site to fix an issue for their system admin who is about as technically skilled as my dog. The fix took all of 5 minutes. At that point there was no way I could drive home and still make it to my adoption class so I stayed in town. Ran a few errands and then headed to class.
Last class was interesting. We had a panel of folks come to talk that included an adoptive parent, a couple that fostered then adopted and a mom who terminated her rights because she was a drug addict. Just hearing about all the medical, emotional, and abuse issues was very hard.
I now am sitting here and stressing out but not sure why. The class was emotional but not any reason for an anxiety attack. I got home late, so I was worried about my pets on the drive home, but again, nothing to freak about. I'm also worried for my injured horse and worried about finances but those aren't new worries and certainly manageable. I listened to some of the presidential debates which was kind of depressing because neither candidate actually answered the questions put to them, but again, nothing worth a freak attack... so really not sure why I have this nagging feeling in the back of my head like something bad is going to happen... it's that whole flight/fight response and I feel like you feel when you are in the basement hiding from a big storm and can't do anything but wait and hope it doesn't hit you.
Anyway, that's my day and please folks don't worry about me... just having a minor freak out for no apparent reason.