DON'T appologizE! Girl I'm here with you!
I totally understand "the rush." I'm the same way. For about a year I never knew what my body was doing. After my first RE appt. I was somewhat relieved to know any informaiton. Even when it wasn't a good diagnosis. I told my DH I can handle not being able to have a baby if I have to, but this not knowing mess is killer.
Not to go TMI on you but we haden't had sex in almost 2 weeks, b/c I was so scared that I would begin to spot. He was very patient with me, and he seems to see that I'm holding a lot of worries and thoughts on the inside.
I keep trying to tell myself that "God doesn't give more than I can handle", and that "when the time is right," and "It's in God's hands," - but when your in it and it's consuming your thoughts none of those things really help.
I'm still crossing my fingers too, but I'm not anticipating a pregnancy. My theory is expect the worst so you can be surprised with happy results.
I'm so pesimistic.
Are they rushing into IUI? Have you tried the shots yet? What about the HSG test?
I know thats my next step the SA and HSG. And I'm not sure if they will let me do another round of Femera plus monitoring while waiting on the date to do the test.
- Jen