[daisy2006]

I am not at all ready to start trying again, but I thought I would pop in for the support. I lost my three at 19 weeks. I went into pre-term labor w/ a dialated cervix and my membranes ruptured on one of the babies. I then developed an infection and had to deliver all three. It was very traumatic to have to go through actual labor and delivery. I don't know how I am going to get through this. I cry everyday.

I am glad to hear the memory box helped you. They have all of that waiting for me at the hospital, but I was too upset to take it. I couldn't handle seeing them after they were born and I didn't want to know if they were boys or girls. My husband saw them though and he knows. I am very torn on whether or not this will help my greiving. I miss them so much everyday. My body is a constant reminder of them. My milk is starting to come in and my belly is still swollen. I just want my body back.

I am so scared to even try again. I know I could not live through a loss like this again. You think after your 12 weeks that you're in the clear. Now I am working on getting rid of everything that reminds me of being pg.

I'm so sorry to lay this all out, but I needed to express my feelings. I wish all of you ladies the best of luck in trying again. Something good has to come out of these losses.

By the way, I loved the message that you got from that spiritual show on Oprah. I think I am going to write down the one about "letting the old pass" and hang it on my fridge as a reminder. I so glad I found this thread. I hope you all don't mind me posting even though I am not quite yet ready to try again yet. to all!!