Heather, and all the other kind words-
How funny it is that your name is heather (if thats true), my best good friend's name is heather.
After finding out that my sister (trying for 7 months, preg for the 2nd time with a man she has been dating for less than a year) is preg, I have pulled away from her. We talked everyday about things, even about our cycles, and now I cant think about her without getting upset and sad for myself. She called me tonight, and asked what i wanted from her, and it killed me. I just CANT talk about her pregnancy, but when I am in her shoes, I WANT to talk to her about mine. That is UNFAIR!! I know it is wrong of me to feel that way, but like i said before, i feel like no one else deserves it but US! Will I ever get over this? Will it take ME getting preg before I can talk to my own sister about ANYTHING?! I feel really torn, but when I dont think about her or talk to her, I am happier, and more understanding about how long it is taking us. Talking to her just puts huge weights on my shoulders and makes me more upset. Has anyone gone through this?!
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TTC 3 years this winter
Clomid 3 cycles= BFN
IUI= BFN
Laparpscopy in 9/2008 right tube removed & bad left tube
IVF # 1
9/3 -AF & BC
9/21 -lupron 10 IU
9/27 -AF
10/3 -187.5 Gonol F
10/6 Luveris 75 IU
10/8 - U/S ~ 17 follies 8 good size
10/9 - U/S ~ 20 follies 8-9 good size... 10,000 IU Trigger
10/11 - RE 10am--- retrieved 10 eggs!! ok just kidding they called and its down to 6.... crap.
~~~Eggs are frozen until transfer~~
10/23- AF- found a few cycts.. have to wait a month...
11/20 AF???
12/4 - ET
12/18 - BETA
We are doing an egg freezing study. Free IVF Cycle!
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