[casb77]

Oh, Jenna honey, we ALL understand how you feel. One of my best friends that was with me through the first couple years of our IF struggle and into us starting IVF got pregnant her very first month of trying. She told me at 6 weeks and I was OK talking to her about it because it was just us. Then when they announced it to everyone I just didn't want to talk about it anymore and she never understood. I felt like she had everyone in the world to talk to about her pregnancy and baby and I had three people to talk to about TTC. She just couldn't understand and eventually the friendship ended.

You'll likely go through several more phases of emotions as you go through this. Sometimes you'll be happy for your sister and sometimes you just won't. I've decided I don't have the energy to feel quilty about feeling my feelings, so I've distanced myself from most of our friends - you know, all the ones who have had 2 kids since we started TTC. It's self-preservation, but it's what I need to do to get through this.

You mentioned a support group, and if there's one in your area it would probably be helpful to share with others who know what you're going through. This forum is a great resource, too. It's what's kept me sane in the last year. So, join a support group, post here, get massages, do whatever you need to do to get through this incredibly difficult time in your life.