[daisy2006]

I'm hoping everyone gets their !!

Dre----I know what you mean about the due date. I keep thinking about how many weeks I would be right now. I would be due in June (earlier w/ the triplets) and two of my friends at work got pg a month after me, so they are due in July. It is so hard to think about going back to work and seeing them. I am afraid I will always feel like this.

We were told that we can't start trying again for 6 months, which won't be until June/July. That seems so far away!! The odds of us conceiving on our own is slim to none b/c of dh's morphology, but I guess miracles can happen. We can't do another IVF anyway until we save up more money. It does suck that it costs so much. Our insurance does not cover a penny of it and I have maxed out my rx plan for fertility meds, so we will have that added cost. I am so jeaolous of people who can conceive naturally with no fertility problems. I can't help but be angry.

I have my good days and my bad days. Sometimes I just break down and cry out of no where. I wish the pain would go away. I keep thinking about my three little angels and it makes me sad. I never saw them or even know if there are boys or girls. If I really wanted to know I could ask my hubby, but I don't think I am ready.

Sorry this is so long, but I needed to vent.