[Bullywrinkles]

Hey Samantha!

Ok so yes. following the June thread was like being a masochist for me. Could not take it anyomore. I am so happy for all the other ladies but enough was enough!

Ok so I cheated today and took a hpt. Still really early. It was neg (no surprise there). I decided to test early because I have to start prometrium as soon as I get a bfp. So, while mentally I don't want to torture myself with the early testing, I felt it would be somewhat irresponsible to not test and be missing out on taking the progesterone. I had some cramping the past few days. Of course it could just be AF getting ready to make her appearance. I had to make a deal with myself that if I poas I was not allowed to obsess about it all day. Just move on. But I do admit, this was one of those post m/c hurdles I knew I had to face. After having a long talk with myself last night I decided that while it is good for me to try and stay positive and strong, it is equally important for me to be sensitive and kind to myself about how difficult these hurdles will be. Just wanted to share. I know you all are facing your hurdles too and it feels better to have that support.

Hope you all have a good day! I am going to attend to some overdue housework in attempt to keep busy. !