[daisy2006]

Bits ! We are glad you joined our little group. I am so sorry for your loss. I got pg on my first IVF also (w/ triplets) and everyone keeps saying the same thing to me about knowing now that I can get pg. It doesn't help ease the pain you are going through. I think we all know what it's like to have you whole train of thinking an dreaming change in an instant. I am in the same boat as you in regards to trying again. It won't be until about May, and even then we will only be trying naturally. We can't afford another IVF yet. It really sucks.

Dre----I would definitely ask to have another beta done. I freaked out after the first ultrasound when they found nothing. I was told it was too early, but insisted on a beta.

As for work, I went back Monday and it went ok. I am a nurse and work for a large orthopaedic office, so there were ALOT of people who knew. They were extra special nice when they saw me. It was very akward. I basically have been hiding in my office since I got back. I am not ready to go back on the floor working w/ patients. I actually left work today at 11 b/c for some reason I could not stop crying. I had a fight w/ dh last night, didn't sleep, cried myself to sleep, and it seemed to last through the day. I have no idea what is wrong w/ me. I am very depressed today. I think it was triggered by a special I watched last night on multiple births. It really upset me.

I feel like my husband is sick of me crying and getting upset. He was great in the beginning and now I feel like he is getting annoyed. It could be my imagination. I don't think he understands that my hormones are still playing a huge role in my moods and depression.

I just want my life to be back to normal. I want my body back to normal and I want a baby. Not alot to ask for, right?