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trying to find peace
Thank you to all of you for sharing your struggles. I am having a really hard time right now. I am seeking closure and peace with the decision to stop TTC#2. My husband and I both do not feel adoption is for us. I have completed 6 IUIs, all unsuccessful. My husband and I have several issues with IVF (esp. financing). He feels at peace and has closure now that we've stopped trying. I thought I had closure, but I really don't. I feel so sad when I go out with my family of three. I feel that my daughter is missing out on having a sibling. I wouldn't want to be an only child.
I'm praying for peace right now. I don't want to feel sad every day. I want to be happy that I have a beautiful child and am blessed in so many ways. I feel as if I am grieving right now. I am grieving the loss of the child I thought I'd have.
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-2001 Lap turns into loss of left ovary, stage 4
Endometriosis
-2004  , we concieved on our own!!! 
Born Christmas Day 2004 BABY GIRL! 
-Nov 2005 started Lupron after 4 months of TTC
-May 2006 began TTC after Lupron 8
months of 
-Jan 2007 started clomid to prepare for 1st IUI
-Feb 2007 - June 2007 too many cysts on ovary to continue 
-Dec 2007 new doctor - began IUI's with clomid
and ovidrel injection
-3 IUIs -
-4th IUI (1st IUI w/ injectibles) -
-July 2008 - took a break this month, re suggests
IVF, we aren't intersted, re suggests another IUI
w/ injectibles for August 2008
-August 2008 - huge cyst found, try again in Sept.
-5th IUI - 9/7/08
-Laproscopy, Hysterscopy, DNC - 10/10/08
-6th IUI - 11/27/2008
Heart broken. We are finished trying for now. 
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