[waitingtoconceive]

I met my husband 6 years ago and we started trying to have a child about 4 months after we met. We have been married for 5 years no with no luck. Finally we decided it was time to look for help to see what the problem was. I got hormone levels tested, they made sure i ovulated, even got the dreded dye in the tubes (hurt like CRAP). i was fine no problems what so ever. So then it was my husbands turn. He went did his thing then i had to wait 3weeks to find out what the results were. Well not so good.. he has a very low sperm count and mobility is slow. my doctor said he had 1% good sperm.. i lost it right there in the office.. all weve ever wanted is a family and now reality is setting in that it may not happen.. so we decide to try an iui i took the clomid days 3-7 went in to the office on 12 got the ultra sound and found 8 folicles.. so then on day 14 we go in for the insemination.. after the sperm had been washed there was hardly anything.. ive tried to stay possitive.. it only takes one right? so now im about 3 day away from when i should be getting my period and have all the signs for it and the 5 pregnancy test ive taken all say no.. i hate this.. and i know it really upsets my husband.. sometimes i think he wants a child more then i do.. he has also told me no donor sperm and no adoption.. i love my husband more then life itself and would never leave him.. i just hope that if we keep trying with the iui's eventually it will happen.. cant afforf ivf.. i just dont know what ill do if im not able to one day become a mother...