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Until recently, I had felt that exact way for a long time. I also have secondary infertility. I thought we would be able to conceive easily, like the first time, whenever we wanted. We started this whole process when our son was 3 1/2. He's turning 11 this summer. We were in denial about needing to see a specialist for a long time, and this story has a lot of twists and turns. I met a wonderful friend at church about 4 years ago. She had been through several years of treatments, and still couldn't have their second. They adopted from China and are very happy. Her encouragement helped me to keep pursuing treatments, even though I didn't want to go through all of it. It took a long time to get myself geared up for all of it. I got angry at God along the way. But, I stuck with it, and tried to be patient, even when I didn't think I should have to be THIS patient, and I'm pregnant now. I'm not saying that praying to God will make you conceive, because plenty of nonbelievers get pregnant, and plenty of believers are never able to get pregnant. Just hang in there. Pray for patience and peace as you keep pursuing this. Although it doesn't seem this way, God is there beside you through all of this, and He will see you through. You may get pregnant. You may not. You may be led to adopt instead.
Infertility takes so much from us. Don't let it take your faith, too.
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