I finally just heard a good insightfull comment. I was feeling really down on monday about the look on my dads face when he asked why I went to doctor and I told him to get a physical for the adoption agency. He just had a look of disappointment or maybe not even that, just he keeps thinking I'll get pregnant. I think he is in denial still. So anyway I'm on facebook and I made the comment. " how come when I pray for rain, it does. But when I pray to get pregnant, nothing. It's like a cruel joke" Well of course I got the typical comment from a guy I went to highschool with that has 5 kids that I could borrow a couple of his (no surprise there) then a friend who is going through the same thing said "I feel your pain". But then my aunt (by marriage) said "god gives you what you need, not what you want". I got an oprah Ahhh Haaa moment. I guess something just clicked. I don't want to believe it's true, but maybe it is. So now when I feel down in the dumps I just think of that. Hope that makes some of you girls feel a little better, I know it did me.
