I went on a long walk today. Acually it wasn't that long. But is was a gorgeously beautiful day, and everyone on the walking path where I was seemed happy and friendly. It was nice. That helped. And my DH has been great, and we're going out tonight, which should help again.
Ive had a few late nights recently, and a few sleepless nights (sick kids) and I think its the fatigue thats getting to me more than anything else. I think that makes me emotional, and then I remember the stress of the last IVF and get scared.
furthermore, my very catholic friend, who I called for support the other day, surprised me by vocalizing her opinion that IVF is meddling with God's will. I didn't know she was that devout... I guess now I do. (NOT to judge....but you know, in hindsight, maybe her saying that is kind of funny, since she has two illigitimate children from different flings-I can only guess how her church thinks about that...) I'm mean to say that, I know, but she made me feel like I had to defend myself to her, and I didnt think that was very nice.
I totally don't agree with her, of course, esp. seeing as Ive already got one precious IVF child, and am grateful to God for the treatments available. But what a thing to say to an infertile person who is trying hard.... right?
Needless to say, I haven't called her back, and dont plan on it for at least a while. I dont hold it against her that she doesnt get it, but I firmly believe in only letting good energy into my inner circle of being. Now is a very impt time to uphold that policy.