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I am new to the infertility community. I am hoping that there may be one reader out there who can help me understand what all of this means because it is clear that I just don't get it.

I have been married for two years. I am 39 years old and have a 19 year old son. My husband is 50 and has a 27 year old son. Together, we decided that we would like a baby together - before we got much older. In November, I have my Mirena IUD removed and we began trying.

Apparently, if a woman over 35 years old does not become pregnant within six months, it is a cause for alarm in some OB/GYN offices - mine being one of them. I was given the Clomid challenge. My husband supplied a semen sample. We both thought that the medication that my husband takes for his Thyroid was responsible for the delay in conception and learned that other medications could be added to his current medication to rid him of that particular side effect.

I called for the test results last Wednesday. My husband is fine! I am not fine. Apparently, my FSH levels showed that I am at a 43 which means that I am in menopause at 39 years old. I refuse to accept this as a final ruling. I have researched the internet and have found some articles that say that FSH levels mean nothing. I am still getting my period each month but they tell me that I am out of eggs or soon to be out of eggs. I typed into Google "reverse menopause" and found a link for a study done in Italy that taking Melotonin will reverse menopause and has helped with conception after menopause. Of course I ran right out and bought some. I willing to do the chicken dance if that would help.

Can someone please explain this FSH number? What does this mean? We are devastated. We have booked an appointment with the infertility specialist but something tells me that there is no hope?.

Thank you so much for listening. I really need some help understanding this. I am not ready to hit that stage of my life and I feel so brokenhearted. I feel so many different emotions but disbelief must be the strongest.