[ladymcneill1104]

Since i have had my lap my cycles, homones, and my sanity have all been messed up. Like here lately I would bleed for 2 week be off a week bleed 3 weeks be off a week. This time it ws only 4 days of bleeding it has been 6 days and I feel like it is coming again. I cannt keep dealing with this I am exhausted. My Daughter will be 4 soon and is very independent and does everything herself. She does preschool 4 days a week and we will be getting ready for kindergarden soon. I actually have to register her in Jan. My husband and I are able to take my DD on weekend trips and give her alot and do alot for her. Since I have been bleeding so much I am concidering asking for them to remove everything. I tired of the bleeding and the pain and quality of life really sucks right now. This weekend I held babies ranging from newborn up to 12 months old and this was the first time I did not get up set of or feel like I want to have a baby. Here lately I have felt like I am really done. No need to convince myself like I have been doing well this that or the other so I wont have another. This time I feel actually more complete that I ever have. I feel like I have found peace. I am not sure what any of this means. I struggled for years to get pg with my DD. I started when I was 18 and did not get pg untill i was 26. By that time with all the doctors and what i was told I was sure i would never have kids. My dd was born july 2005 and we have been trying since she was 6 months and have done some treatment and I dont want to wrap that many years into something that will probably never happen and I just dont want to be that much older to have a baby.