I am so glad that I found this forum. It is so nice to know that there is a place where I can talk to other women who know exactly what I am going through. I find it very hard not to be bitter, right now I have about 6 or 7 friends who are either pregnant now or just had a baby in recent months and I ask myself why is so easy for them and so hard for me. And I also have a very big problem seeing and hearing about mothers and I use that term very loosely when speaking about these women who could care less about the children they bring into this world. I always ask why would god give children to these people who do not deserve them and deny me the chance of being the absolute best mother I could possibly be. Does anyone else feel the way I do or am I just crazy? The thing that bugs me the most is when I am speaking to someone about the trouble my husband and I are having TTC....They say to me "oh just relax" ...."stop thinking about it and it will happen"..."when you stop trying that is when you will get pregnant"...I can't stand it...when you are on all the drugs and your every move is timed and things just can't be spontaneous you can't help but think about it all the time and the worst is the 2 week wait...that is a killer. Your mind playing tricks on you the drugs screwing with your body it is terrible. I know it will be worth it in the end but it is rough having to do this and most people just can't understand it. Thanks for listening just needed to vent to people who understand me!
Dawn
31- unexplained
TTC-3 months
All timed intercourse no IUI as of yet
04/09 Clomid 50mg/Ovidrel/Endometrin
05/09 Clomid 50mg/Ovidrel/Endometrin
06/09 Clomid 100 mg/Ovidrel/Prometrium 600mg a day
7/1/09 We find out tomorrow
