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My first loss
Here is my story. My husband and I tried to conceive after going off the pill. I had been on the pill for almost 9 years. We got pregnant after 3 months of trying and I was so excited. We told everyone! I always worried about miscarrying and I read up on it and decided that I would probably end up being part of that statistic. Everyone called me neurotic.
At our 8 week ultrasound we went in all excited, but I was a bit nervous. The ultrasound tech sounded very confused and she said it looked like I was about 5 ish weeks along. She told me to come back in 3 weeks because it was too early. I new this wasn't right and asked if I was miscarrying all she said was no it's too early stop worrying. How could I not worry.
I went home and was a basket case wondering what might be wrong. I called my doctor the next day asking her to do blood work or something. She said to come in next week for another ultrasound. I did and of course no heartbeat. But it looked like there was some growth. The found a white spot in there and said it is either twins or a miscarriage. What two different extremes! I was so upset I knew this wasn't right.
My doctor sent me for blood work on the weekend and called on Monday to let me know that I will miscarry because my hormone levels were going down. I was petrified. My doctor called back and asked if I wanted a d & c because it was already 10 weeks and still no bleeding. I said fine I wanted it over with. That was the worst day ever.
It has been 3 1/2 weeks since the D & C. I tell everyone I am fine but I do still think about it at times. All I can think about is getting pregnant again. My doctor said to wait two cycles, but honestly I don't want to listen. I am not actively trying, but I am not preventing it either. I just know I will be on egg shells from now on and I don't know how to get over this and move on. I just think about being pregnant constantly.
Does anyone have any postive stories after having a d&c done and getting pregnant again? I need something to look forward to.
Thanks for listening it feels better to write it!
Nicole
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