[IndieBlue]

Brandy, I'm so sorry. I dealt with this last year and it's so hard to do another cycle with this always in the back of your mind. I actually took a HPT everyday after ER just to see the trigger leave my system last cycle. I saw the HPT go positive after the trigger was gone for 3 days straight and then go back negative...it was devastating to say the least. Took me a full year to emotionally and financially afford another cycle and still I am so worried about chemicals or losing the baby before the 1st trimester that I can't enjoy my pregnancy due to previous experience.

I know that one thing that helps me though is concentrating on something else. It's really really hard....but you have to make yourself busy with something else like planning a vacation later in the year or another project that you've been meaning to get to. Keeping busy helped me pass the time after my chemical and helped me to slowly get over it.....but still you have to grieve in your own way for the loss, don't just tuck it away.

Praying for you! I really am truly sorry...and know exactly how you feel.