[karenBFP]

I have no childrren happily married and have recurrent missed miscarraiges at 10wks and 8wks we have looked into adoption and starting training for this next year. My miscarraiges are unexplained so its somthing that cant be fixed because there is no problem to fix.
I was diagnosed with aps blod clotting disorder when pg 8yrs ago and given asprin and fragmin injections everytime i am pg but this never works for me. I am now at my wits end i am getting no younger and i am ttc again and when and if it does happen i will start steriods called prednisone. If this does not work i will adopt a child that needs the love i can give. Adopting a child will be fantastic i will love and treat that child no different than i would if i had my own. I to write down my feelings and it does get me through the day and night i also write poems about my losses and the way i feel. I am learning to except thats its more than likely i will not give birth to a child of my own. It does hurt but i try to forget and look to the future you can still have a bright life and still be a mum and be a family by adopting and i am looking foward to being a adoptiive mum.

I had a old friend from school speak to me on the streets coming home from shopping just after i had lost my pregnancy
at 8wks gestation 2mths ago she has a little girl and pregnant again and we was speaking when i told her i had just lost
a child she just come out with and it said cant you have kids or what! I was in shock that she could be so heartless
and just cme out with somthing like this. She then went on to say rubbing her belly that she did not want the baby she
was carrying and it made me sick i couldnt wait to get away from her and felt so sad that someone can act that way.

xx