[karenbp]

I agree that writing down what your feeling is a good thing.. it is therapeutic somehow. I thought I had come to terms with my unexplained infertility and decision to live life to its fullest without children of my own.. until my nephew died.

Christopher, my brother's only child, was killed at the age of 16 by a hit and run driver. He was the only child in my immediate family. His death made me question my decisions all over again.. brought all those feelings about my infertility that I thought I had "resolved" right back to the surface.

I am once again struggling with my choice... though I do still believe it is the right one for my husband and I... we have lost our future and our little family seems so lonely without Chris...

I have a feeling that all throughout our lives we may have these feelings resurface. I am reading a few books right now on living childfree and it seems that people like us (for whom it wasn't a first choice) may feel regret or lonliness at certain times in our lives.

I am curious how you feel about your future and if you ever have these feelings resurface?

Wishing you happiness too.
Karen