Brittanie i feel for u and completly understand where your at!! When i lost my son all my friends were having their baby's around the same time!! It was so hard to be happy for them, but of course i didn't want the same thing to happen to them!!! It has been two years since my darling Mataio died and I still find it very hard to visit their children especially as they were boys!!! These feelings are normal and it takes alot of time to work through them!!!! Dont be hard on yourself as your friends will understand!!!!!!!!!!!
After losing my son my baby cousin (15) found herself pregnant and i was so upset and angry with her for a while as i wanted to be pregnant!!!! I really felt so horrible for hateing her and the baby, but i couldn't help those feelings!!!! Once I had the time to take it all in i was able to be happy for her,and feel alot of love for the baby!!!
Unfortunatly she had a misscarage, just as i found out i was expecting again!!! I was able to be there for her which she found helpful, and she also understood where i was coming from!!!!
I've gone on to have a healthy baby girl named narnia, but i still miss my son so so much and think about him everyday!!!
My thoughts and love r with you and your husband, and also your beautiful baby girl cora!!!!
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