[kitkat7782]

I Just Wanted To Say--my Heart Breaks For You Guys That Have Step Children But None Of Your Own. I Can Maybe Give You A Little Perspective Of The Other Side.....

I Have 2 Beautiful Children From My First Marriage. The Marriage Lasted 7 Years--my Ex Left During My Second Pregnancy. I Met My Current Husband When The Baby Was 5 Months Old. He Has Been A Huge Part Of Her Life--but My Ex Is Still Very Active--so He Can Never Adopt Them. He Asked Me Very Bluntly When We Began Dating If I Would Be Willing To Have Another Child. Of Course, I Agreed!!! I Totally Understood His Desire For Having A Child Of His Own--and Assured Him He Would Be A A Father. We Started Trying Immediately After We Got Married. After 2 Years Of Marriage, We Have Had An Early Miscarriage And An Ectopic/bilateral Tubal Removal. This Has Rendered Me Infertile. It Is Sooooo Heartbreaking For Me To Have To Think About What My Husband Has Given Up In His Life By Ending Up With Me.....he Loves Me And I Know That's The Most Important Thing In His Eyes, But I Find It So Unfair That He Hasnt Been Able To Experience The Miracle That I Have. So Many People Ask Me Why I Am Doing In Vitro When I Have Two Healthy Children--they Dont Understand My Need To Give My Husband This Amazing Gift. I Can Handle Needles, The Surgeries--everything Except Being Unable To Give Him A Child He So Deserves And Desires....

Sorry This Post Is Long....i Feel Better Just Sharing My Frustration. I Cant Really Talk About This Aspect With Dh Because He Doesnt Want Me To Feel Bad And Knows It Is Not My Fault.....wishing For All Your Dreams To Come True!!!
Kat