[ThaKatzMeow]

My name is Andrea and i just joined the forum. I have been dealing with infertility and i am a newlywed. My husband and I barley ever fight and now thats all we do. Right now i am on depo lupron with has me severly depressed and an emotional wreck. My husband is working almost 24 hours a day sometimes he doesn't sleep for days. He is doing this to secure our future and i understand that, but i don't think he truly understand what i am going threw. Lately all we do is fight its like we can't be in the same room for 5 min with out fighting.
It got alot worse these past two weeks. I had a doctors appointment and consultation last tuesday and he couldn't go because of work. They needed a sample from him to figure out where we go from here. I asked him to pick the date he would drop it off, and he picked friday (yesterday). Well thursday night we were on the phone while he was at work and he sensed i was aggrivated with him, immediatley he started argueing with me and said he refused to take the sample in because he didn't want to have a child with me if we were not in a healthy relationship. I went off the handle i couldn't believe he actually said that to me. I don't want to bring a child into a marriage that isn't healthy but i realize we are going through alot right now and aslong as we work together it will get better than it use to be. I suggested counseling and he agreed. As it seemed we were getting some where, he said he couldn't take the sample in because of his work schedual, it had changed. I told him he needed to choose which was more important. I also told him it seemed like he was picking a fight for a reason not to take it in to the doctors office because he couldn't do it due to work. I never got an answer on that and i haven't spoken to him since haven't even seen him. Today is our 6 month wedding anniversary which makes this all even more painful. We use to be so close, he use to be my rock, and my bestfriend. Its like he doesn't care anymore, he thinks because he is stressed out and can just hurt me and it is all right. I feel so weak right now, and i am. If i wasn't going through all of this i know i could handle this better. Right now i just feel like i am loosing everything and there isn't a thing i can do about it. As i sit here and read all of the other posts i can't stop crying. I just wish i could get a handle on all of this. Any advise that could help please let me know. Thank you!