Well I'm sure that some have read by now that we're pregnant after our sweet Bean's loss in December and I feel like...our pregnancy innocence has been stolen from us! Today has been the hardest day thus far and I feel them only getting harder as I approach eight weeks, the number of weeks at which I miscarried Bean.
I'm afraid every time I go to the washroom....will I see blood on the TP?
I'm afraid every time I sneeze! Yes sneeze...even when I cough!! And sometimes when I laugh!! I'm driving myself nuts and I know I shouldn't! I know I should be trying to remain as calm as possible and this is me as CALM A-S P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E. I know I'm not calm enough, but how do I be calm when I just don't trust my body!
If it failed me once before why shouldn't it do it to me again!? I'm going nuts!! I just want my pregnancy innocence BACK!
Every time I cramp or feel stretching I hold my breath and think OMG it's happening again!
I just want my pregnancy innocence back!
