Alana, Ladies
Thanks for thinking of me. I have been rather down in the dumps lately, really feeling like I and others don't care.
After 40 CDs AF decided to show. DH and I were both a bit scared I was pregnant again as we've decided that *big sigh* we won't be TTC anymore for a while and I am very scared to be pregnant again before we know that anything or nothing is wrong. (I don't want to go through a third m/c) We're seeing the doctor on the 30th to test and what not, but we aren't going anywheres from there. We just don't have the money to do any treatments and DH's family (extremely loaded!) does not even care one bit. Ten grand is chump change to them, it is, hard to come by for us.
I'm feeling very depressed. I respect my DH's decision and thinking on putting it all off, but my heart is hurting terriably these past couple of days. Probably AF depression, but still. I cry off and on.
I figure since we'll not be TTC probably until well after October (three year mark for us!
) I may as well go out and get tattooed to remember our Sweet Angel Babies. I'll be getting two sets of tiny baby feet on my wrist.I'm hoping this will help me cope. I am also looking into counselling but it's hard when IVF costs money and so does counselling, so where does the money go KWIM?
anyways, I'm such a drag. I'm sorry!!
I'm happy to hear though taht everyone is doing well!!
Jen, I dyed my hair the same color today!! Needed a change.
Looks great on you!
Take care Ladies!!
