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Yesterday DH and I ended up in a gigantic fight. Basically it boils down to the fact that I am super upset at him for his absence in our marriage and the fertility struggle. He never wants to talk to me about anything, ignores me most of the time when I am talking, and takes no time for me anymore. He hasn't bothered to do anything special for me in years. So I took off my wedding ring and told him that I am through with being treated this way. I am tired of feeling second to work and everything else.....and he actually told me that "Work is us" and that he gets paid to plan stuff for work. I was so hurt. Who in the world says that work is us? Who thinks that way?

Well a little later in the night he came upstairs to the bedroom and I guess decided that he would get everything off of his chest. He said that he resents me for having a fertility problem and not being able to get pregnant. (and all I could think was that I actually asked for him to talk to me about his feelings?!?! Stupid me!) Now I am super depressed about the entire issue. He did say that he is going to work on getting over his resentment, but is that really possible? I mean, if we don't end up getting pregnant I feel like this will hang over our heads forever and I will always feel guilty about it. I don't know what to do or say. What do you ladies and gents think? I really thought of us as a team against infertility until last night....now I feel like its me against it all including him. And the worst part is that I have to be at work...listening to inmates complain about their situations all day long....sometimes I think I got into the wrong profession!