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I hadn't even thought about standing up to do injections. Heidi thats a great discovery, I am definatley going to remember that when I finally get back into TTC again...which will be in about 3-4 months I think. Lots and lots of tests etc to do before that time.
Rachael, Susan, Ronni, thanks for checking in on me girls. The ultrasound actually revealed something kind of horrific today...that the sac had shrunk even further than two weeks ago (now measuring 4 weeks or something crazy like that) but now there is a tiny little fetal pole with a heart pulse! How dreadful is that!! Thats why they refused the D&C...even though its completely and utterly unviable and my RE clinic tried to tell them that too. They were just being very very cautious I guess.
Either way, its exactly the same as the last miscarriage...only weirder as DH and I can only imagine what very very scary embryos we are creating in there. The best thing would have been to do the procedure today but I decided to humour them only because I am bleeding very heavily and I know the decision is out of their hands anyway. Still...how am I supposed to keep doing this?? Why can't this be normal just once?!! My DH crazily thinks its good info though...that the fact the embryo puttered along at such a slow rate will give the specialists something to go on. I on the other hand am just starting to wonder if my body is killing them. I mean, what if there could have been healthy babies but my stupid body stopped them growing?? How will I live with myself?
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