[CaribbeanQueen]

Hello Everyone... I'm a newbie, too. It feels like I am in the right place. My fertile friends just don't get this stuff... Never have.

I just had my FET on the 18th also (must be a popular day!). RE transferred two blasts. One she said looked "good." The other one, well, not so much. She didn't say why it wasn't as good, and frankly, on transfer day, I didn't want to ask!

I'll try to give my backstory in a nutshell: DH and I tried to conceive for 2 years on our own. We started with RE in April of 2003. I had two failed IVF cycles, and DH and a testicular biopsy and varicoclectomy during that time. My first cycle was a total nightmare. I hyper-stimmed BIG time and had severe internal bleeding from the ER. Despite that, I still had ET on day 3. Needless to say, my body was not ready for all that.

In April of 2005, on our last IVF attempt, (DH had PESA procedure same day of ER), I became pregnant! We had our DD in January of 2006. She definitely makes all of the difficult times we had worth it (and then some!). I think that if I have a BFN this time, it won't seem nearly as awful as my first two cycles.

DH and I already have an approved international home study, and we had planned on adopting childern even before the IF stuff. So if this doesn't work, my first call will be to our agency to start the process. One way or another, we should have a new family member next year!

I've been very surprised at my strong feelings for having a second child. It's not like before when *nothing* was going our way, but my desire is still as strong. A basic human function--like reproduction--when it doesn't work--is very discouraging. Especially when I see TONS of unqualified parents out there! GRRRRR! It definitely goes in the "life isn't fair" category.

Getting back to this FET... We only told 2 people (family members). I just didn't want everyone knowing when the "news" would come. Ick. I did just buy 4 dollar store HPTs today. I think I'll start testing on Thursday. My Beta is scheduled for October 1st. Believe me, if AF comes, I am NOT doing my Beta. I did that on my first cycle. I just don't need that phone call when I know that I'm not pg.

Question: Did any of you have any weird feelings after the transfer? I had some "cramping" (felt more like tightness, actually) the day of and day after. I feel absolutely nothing now. A little tired, maybe, but that's from the meds and chasing after a toddler, I'm sure.

When I got pg last time, I had absolutely NO symptoms. No implantation spotting, no sore boobs, nada, zilch, zero!

Oh--I am a teacher too! Another coincidence. I resigned at the end of my maternity leave to be a SAHM!

Well, thanks for reading... I am sending everyone .