[lasdrm2bmom]

I recently underwent ivf and was successful in getting pregnant. I had been told that my levels had started low and they were looking for them to double every two to three days. This started happening and I relaxed and allowed myself to become excited about becoming a mother.

Then on Wednesday last week, I received a call and was told the levels plummeted and it could result in miscarriage. There was still some hope so we waited and we prayed. Unfortunately, on Friday I was told that the levels dropped even more and it would definitely result in miscarriage. I have to return tomorrow for more monitoring because the levels must drop to zero.

The waiting is killing me. I am waiting to get a really bad period that will signal the end of my pregnancy. Since I know it is going to inevitably happen, I just wish it would. I am scared and all of this waiting is making it harder.

Has anyone else gone through this scenario or something similar to it? I know that I am lucky it is happening so early in my pregnancy, but it still feels like a loss.