[Just1More]

I can totally understand where you are coming from!! I was lucky that I conceived DS easily, but suffered complications after he was born that has damaged my fertility. If I was still TTC#1 then I would have gone to the ends of the earth to fall pregnant and done every treatment available. But it's not the same with secondary infertility (sorry, ladies, I'm sure some will disagree, but just my opinion). I often ask myself where will I draw the line with my treatment TTC#2. Do I really want to have another child that desperately to go through years of painful treatments to fall pregnant. After all, I am blessed with one child already and any more would just be a bonus. Some days the answer is yes, and other days the answer is no. I take it month to month. Every month during the 2ww I tell myself that I can't go through another month of this, the heartache and frustration. So far as AF arrives my hormomes settle down and I feel refreshed again and ready to start again. When I was having my dye studies test done I secretly hoped I would be told that I couldn't have anymore children just for some closure. Probably 8 months ago I finally came to the realisation that if I didn't end up having another child then it wouldn't be the end of the world. TTC became a bit easier to deal with after that. At the end of the day, what will be will be. You can't change what is going to happen, you can only hope, pray and keep on trying. Best of luck to all you ladies, and I hope to be hearing of your BFPs very soon.....