[MrsBiff]

so i figured, since its the holidays, and we were invited to my BIL's for thanksgiving, i should tell him why I wouldnt be around. I explained that DH and I had been TTC for 17 mos, and it had been hard on me. And i told him about his wife saying that everytime she wanted a baby, she got pg. i figured he would be understanding like his mom.

but i got a message just now saying that he didnt think i was ready because i wasnt acting very maturely.

this coming from a man who is expecting his third child in less than 5 years. he doesnt understand. they've never had a problem getting pg.

its not about maturity. its about me having panic attacks when i see pregnant women. its about the depression that i have been dealing with. its about how hard this has been on me and my marriage. this has completely beat me down. i feel like a dog being punished for something i didnt do.