[Deej]

elove: i agree w/ giving my body time to know what it is up to.. the fertility coach said the same thing after the first 3 failed iuis... the doc did not want to put me on clomid immediately b/c all my bloodwork and hsg (done after round 1) were good AND the risk of multiples...
Su: you are my hope to do one more iui before having the surgery... but i have read more posts about women who wish they had stopped trying iui's b/c when they saw their insides there was no chance of conceiving w/out ivf... i too do meditation, read positive thinking books, and use visualization. i am giving thanks from before i get out bed and end each night in prayer/meditation. that is another thing that makes it hard, doing what you are supposed to do, having faith and thinking positive. now is the acceptance part: it was just not meant to be this month, perhaps next!
lilac and su: you all have me about convinced to try another round w/ clomid. i did respond well, with no side effects. but the reason the doc did not go to injectibles (after #3 failed, the fert. coach had asked about injectibles and i was gung ho) is because it is investing more financially mentally and physically, and he will not do that until he has looked inside. i know where he is coming from, all the follicles in the world cannot help if there are bigger issues.
Perhaps the test is too early, if no af today, I may test again tomorrow.
I am upset but will deal with it, and figure my next move. It is only money and emotions, and I will run out of money before the emotions are gone!
I appreciate the encouraging words, all of you!
Deep down I want to believe my body is healthy, that number five would be the magic number, and what is another $1500 when you have already spent $9000?? I would rather spend the 1500 and get pregnant and not have to worry about surgery... And there is always the chance the surgery will show no problems, indicating to continue with IUI.
Elove: is your shot still chillin? tonight the night?
lilac: did your period come yet?
Kathryn: are you feeling better?