Thank You For Your Reply! Yes, I have talked with her. We both have cried over the topic of divorce. I never wanted it and was entirely SHOCKED when she called with the news! I told her how my views and perspective on things had changed. We had a long talk. Her main reply was that if we did try to get back together now that it would be a long process and how could she ever trust me again that I would be there for her when she needed me most. That I wouldn't just withdraw again! My response was that life is a journey and that I have changed. That I want kids! That I want to chase them around! I want to feed them! That I want so many things and that my judgement was so clouded before by years of Infertility!! :-( But she is still hurt, angry, and skeptical. All the while now I have in the back of my mind, that if we did get back together, how would we ever have disagreements without me fearing that she would just go get the Lawyer again. :-( When I see her now, I just cry. I think that I am broken. Our dreams have been lost because of my resentment, stupidity, and shame. So now I am clueless as how to proceed.
Thank You Again For Your Input,
InfertilityCrushed2
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