[InfertilityCrushed2]

Sorry, the last sentence in my last post was totally inappropriate. :-( I know that my wife loves or loved me and wanted my child. I tried to edit the post but it timed out on me. :-( I miss my Wife. After last night I am even more in dispair. She always told me that I don't ask her for help enough. So I reached out to her and told her that if she had time or wasn't busy to stop by and see my Mother and me. I waited hopefully but she never showed. So I layed awake last night pondering things. I believe tonight that I am going to drive to see her Parents for this reason. I was Man enough to ask their permission to marry their Daughter 7 1/2 years ago, then I should be Man enough to apoligize to them in person and admit my own failures. I do not want to sneak out of my marriage in the middle of the night by reason of Divorce. I would rather sit down with them and admit my faults and let them have their say to me. I am sure that they have alot to say. But they cannot question the fact that I LOVED their Daughter. She is Beautiful, thoughtful, loving, caring, sweet, strong, and smart. The world is very LUCKY to have her! She is an Amazing Woman! She graduated in 4 years from a difficult university with an A average! She was a cheerleader! She was very popular. I let her down and for that I am truly sorry. Tears flow as I type this thinking about the person that I have lost. IF totally clouded and changed my perspective on things. Had things been different and we had 2 or 3 children running around our house right now, I would of considered myself to be one of the luckiest men alive. I just lost focus on what really mattered. That I love my wife and the person that she is today even more than the person that she was when I met her. She is so strong and determined.

Thank You All Again! Thank you also for this website. I am crushed and devastated but I don't feel as alone when I am on here reading and typing. I do miss my wife though.

Stay Safe All.

Love, InfertilityCrushed2

P.S. I am thankful for a Woman's perspective, thoughts, and suggestions on my situation. I don't want to be coddled or talked to politely. It is more than ok to just give it to me straight. I know that I Failed in a major part of my IF journey with my wife. Life is about learning and adapting. So I want to fight for my chance to show that I have changed. That I want things more than ever before. Thank You All Again And Again!!!!