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Hi ladies. I'm having a bit of a stressful DE week. One of the blood tests that our donor took came back positive (in a bad way). Apparently it's a test that has a ridiculously high rate of false positives. The nurse couldn't tell me what the test was for specifically due to privacy (though that doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me, since we have no idea who she is!). The definitive test is very expensive (we're talking another $500), but the nurse told us it would be a result that would determine whether or not she could be a donor at all. So, of course, we said they should do the test. It takes 5 days to get the results - which means we'll know today or Monday.

So, in part I'm worried that after we've become so attached that we may not be able to use her. I've had my mind completely wrapped up in this calendar. I should know by now not to get too attached, but I can't help it. This is one of those reasons to use a repeat donor.

But, also, we've been so stressed for our donor herself. She's a young, healthy woman who has taken a test she wouldn't have taken if she wasn't doing this for us. Now she has to be concerned all week that she's got some condition that may impact her ability to have kids and who knows what else. We send peaceful, hopeful wishes her way, but of course we can't do it personally. We just hope she can feel our thoughts.

Anyway, I'm pretty confident that the test will come back negative and we'll be ready to move forward. But, until then, I'm on edge.