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Wow, I feel devastated for you.
Today I got bad news that the 4th fertility treatment did not work and I feel like someone kicked me in the gut! It doesn't surprise me tho b/c this past 2 weeks that i've been waiting on my results has been horrible and stressful and all I've been doing is crying and getting upset....how can i create a child with this kind of upheaval...but I'm trying to keep my head up.
As for your wife, everyone is right, leave her alone. If she's getting more annoyed at your gestures, it's best not to call her, text her or send her flowers....just let her be. I can only imagine the pain you're feeling right now knowing that you could very well have lost your marriage forever. I think you did a wonderful thing by praying for last night, that's all you can do...keep praying and God will work things out. If it's meant for you both to be back together it'll happen, if it's not, well that's a harsh reality you have to face and reading your posts and I think you are preparing yourself which is good.
Take some time to reflect on your life. I know you want your wife back, but maybe you can also focus on something you want to do and get yourself into that to remove the focus of your wife. I pray for you that things work out one way or another.
God bless.
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Me - 38 (PCOS, Both tubes blocked)
DH - 37 (everything is fine)
1st IVF Dec - 2006 
2nd IVF March - 2007
3rd IVF
Nov 20 - 1 healthy egg transferred on 5th day
1st beta - 33  (Nov 30)
2nd beta - 47 (Dec 3)
3rd beta - 28 (Dec 5) numbers declining. Was told pregnancy is not viable.
 - 12/9
12/10 - spoke with Dr. and he said there's hope. starting another cycle. Dr. did internal sonogram, everything looks ok.
12/10 started Aygestin pills
12/12 starting Lupron
12/18 - still on Lupron also had hysterosonogram to check cervix...everything seems to be ok.
1/8/08 - started Follistim 300mcg 
1/18 - retrieval - 11 follicles
1/21 - embryo transfer 4 follies
2/1 
Taking a break until 9/15/08
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