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I am so sorry to hear about your situation. My husband and I are about to start fertility treatments because of a low sperm count. He's mentioned many times that he would understand if I divorced him due to his inability to have children. To me that is an absolutely rediculous statement, but he also has a since of failure. As his wife, whose reasons for marrying him had nothing to do with his sperm, I do not see it as his fault. It's our problem that we have to work though together. Your wife probably saw it that way too and felt that maybe your lack of enthusiasm was due to a lack of caring, which obviously isn't the case. She probably had a hard time understanding the unnecesarry guilt that you carried for your situtation.
The emotional roller coaster of trying to have a baby is enough to put a major strain on the best of marriages. Maybe if you told her how you felt inadequate when trying to conceive, she may understand where you were coming from. She probably won't fully understand, because like I said, she probably didn't see it as YOUR problem, but she may understand how you could feel that way. You two fell in love with each other a long time ago for hundreds of reasons besides trying to make a baby. Surely you two can get back the basics of your relationship. Remember, if things work, and she wants to try again, whether a baby joins you or not, you would be investing in you future together just by trying. I may not know what I'm talking about, but I hope something I said helps.
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