I'm here girls and DH and I survived yesterday. I had my favorite Starbucks drink for the first time in months and DH and I cooked a great dinner together last night. We're going to be just fine. I know I'll swing all over the place emontionally for a while and I'm afraid anger will be my baseline for a bit.
I did have a hard time at Target yesterday afternoon. Ours is simply FULL of pregnant ladies and babies. (We moved to this area 6 1/2 years ago because it's full of young families and great schools.) I almost started crying in the tampon isle since they stock those right next to the HPTs and the sight of the Clear Blue Easy Digital truly makes me feel sick to my stomach right now. All I could do was picture the words "Not Pregnant". In fact, if anyone wants one free FRED and one free CBE stick - I'll gladly mail hem to you. I'm done with that bllsht. Yuck.
DH has been wonderful and my older brother is an amazing source of support for me right now. He and his wife did 3 IVFs several years ago (2 locally and 1 at CCRM) just like us. He's a doctor and really understands everything about the process and personal aspects. He's been great. Best part is that he agreed to talk with our mom for a while last night about it because I knew she'd was wanting to grieve with someone and I simply couldn't do it. He ran interference for me.
The good news is that DH starts a new job Monday and it could be a very exciting change for him. He'll be working with an oil & gas investment firm and I'm proud of him for changing industries while the real estate/mortgage business here is in such bad shape. Seriously - he's had almost zero income since October. Since I'm not working yet and we've spent $50K cash in the past year on IVFs - we're getting to a scary place. I'm hoping he finds the new job rewarding and challenging but I have to admit I'll miss being with him every day at home. Never, ever thought I'd say that! IF and unemployment have really brought us closer together. I guess we've passed some of life's toughest challenges over the past year and I can be proud of that, huh?
Okay - enough about me. Sorry about that!
Tia - BCPs were always the worst part for me. I could cry or be angry about anything. Glad this phase is coming to a close for you and can't wait to follow your progress!!!
Peach - Don't be sad for me. I'm okay. Really. You've been a wonderful friend through ALL my cycles and I can't tell you how often I refer to "my sweet friend in Atlanta".
Kelly - I'd be frustrated with DH for quitting the zinc too. My DH didn't even modify his diet, take vitamins or give up beer during all of our cycles and there were definitely days I wanted to throw in the towel because I was having to do all the work. Being a woman is hard. Hang in there and start your vacation countdown!!
April - Miss you!!! I'm glad to hear you'll be finished with training and home soon. Will you and Mel be home together for at least a few days before one of you is in the air??
Josee - You in-laws sound delightful. I understand your stress about having to spend time with them. I don't click with mine either and it always gets me frustrated when we're with any of them. DH has 4 brothers and sisters and they're all local so it seems we're always with at least one of them! When's your biopsy supposed to be??
Alana - Glad to hear MIL is mellowing out a bit. How is her health progressing and how is DH doing? Love, love, love the nursery picture! Very chic!