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Evita, its so nice to hear from you. Sounds like Eva is doing great. Is she smiling and cooing all the time now? Our girls are a little behind in that department being preemies. They just recently started smiling a little more, but Mila is catching on faster than Maddie.

I can't believe how fast the time is flying. I just try and enjoy them being this small as much as I can, since we may not have anymore after this. We do plan on adopting in the future though. DH would really like a son and I don't think my body could handle another c-section.

I don't think I ever told you guys my issue with the c-section. I have a heart problem and it seemed to elevate with the surgery. The night after the surgery, I would wake up every 10-15 minutes trying to breathe. I was not breathing as I slept and I would wake up gasping for breath, but yet the drugs made me so tired I couldn't help but keep falling asleep. I was actually scared I wouldn't make it through the night. I don't think I could do that to my girls. I feel like I would be selfish if I tried to have more children knowing that I may not make it to be there for the ones I already have. I don't want to deprive them of their mommy. I'm just glad I got to experience pregnancy just this once in my life. It was all I could have hoped for and more.

Sorry girls, I just had to ramble a little.

Well, the girls had a great night last night. I got more sleep than I ever have since they've been home. They got up for a feeding about 3:30 a.m. and then at 7:30 a.m. I feel so refreshed. I still can't believe how well I slept.