well the doctors have told me that i have no ovaries according to 2 ultrasounds, so i dont have any eggs to spare, so biological children are out of the question. the next best thing i could do is get eggs from my mom. the diagnosis so far has been pruimary prepubertal ovarian failure, hypothyroidism, hypogonadism? a thought in my ec's head. and i have a pituitary adenoma, on top of that i have epilepsy and the drugs i am taking dilantin are reducing the effectiveness of my ovral (hormone replacement therapy), i believe that this whole thing is a big linked up mess becuz if the lcoation of the tumour is in the rite spot then it could be the WHOLE thing, including the epilepsy. but my doctors think different and they wont send me to see a gyno becuz to them it is for sure for sure a hormonal problem and nothin physical but my original pediatric endo said that i had a small abnormal shaped uterus, now u would think that those are physical elements, the whole missing ovaries and weird uterus...? they seem to think differently. this issue just eats me up every day, becuz i no that i will never have my own children, i have thought about suicide, but im scared of death... so thats out the window and ive seen a councillor about this and they just talk to me like im an idiot....so that is only a tad effective for gettting this depression of my chest. but i try and play it off with most ppl like its not a huge issue becuz if they know it hurts me then they just look at me like im a little baby, so i just try and i guess u could say fake who i am and apparently ive fooled some ppl but i cant fool myself...
